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Peralta Community College District's only student-run publication.

The Citizen

Peralta Community College District's only student-run publication.

The Citizen

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    Math doesn’t solve easy

    Usually, when people ask me what classes I’m taking this semester I tell them “the math class from Hell.” 
    No jokes here. Every time I walk through that classroom door I feel as if I’m being engulfed in flames. While it is Hell, I can’t help but feel like I jumped into a cold pool, couldn’t swim, and am now drowning in result. This math class is too much for me, so I plan on dropping it. I’m choosing a W. But that doesn’t mean I’m giving up. I’m doing the exact opposite.
    I’ve always struggled in math growing up. By the time I got to my senior year I decided that Algebra 2 wasn’t a good choice for me. I could struggle and fail and not graduate high school, even though the rest of my grades were good, or I could take an elective instead and go to community college. I chose the latter, and I’m glad I did. I wasn’t giving up, I was doing what was best for me. And that’s the same thing I’m doing now.
    I knew the minute I walked into that classroom it would be too challenging for me. My math skills are too poor. But I told myself that I’d try anyways. And I did, for the most part. For four hours twice a week, I listened to the instructor, even though the topics went over my head, like the map on the BART train or Japanese. I worked with classmates on work sheets and went to tutoring before tests….and then I went to counselors and asked about their opinion on receiving my first ever W. 
    My health has never been as bad as it is now. I always feel sick to my stomach, I get awful migraines that power down my brain and my anxiety has tripled since taking this class. The amount of stress from this is unbearable, and no matter what I did or where I was or how much fun I was having during this semester, this math class was always on my mind. 
    I meditate and try to calm down but ultimately, it has become a flight or fight type of situation. I cannot keep going to this class with risk of hurting my mind, body or GPA. So I am withdrawing from my math class before the deadline. 
    But wait! This is not giving up. This is trying harder, this is fighting back. This is trying a different way. A different class next semester and a different one after that. And if that plan doesn’t work then I will find another path. Getting a W on my transcript shows my struggle, as well as my triumph to staying true to myself. And that’s nothing to be ashamed about. That is something to be celebrated.

    About the Contributor
    In the fall of 2019, The Laney Tower rebranded as The Citizen and launched a new website. These stories were ported over from the old Laney Tower website, but byline metadata was lost in the port. However, many of these stories credit the authors in the text of the story. Some articles may also suffer from formatting issues. Future archival efforts may fix these issues.  
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